Wednesday, December 31, 2008 9:17 AM
was drafting out my t3a (teacher requested for it early so to save the hectic rush next year.) and realised tat i do not have any major achievements. *sobs. Though i kinda enjoyed my outside-the-academic-and-college-world times, it is still practical reality that will hit me hard when it comes to evaluation times like this, when you can't actually pen any practical things into words. But there's not much to regret about. Maybe except for one thing that concerns the choice of my CCA and the choice that i've made in my CCA. but then again, reading back into what happened last year, i don't think, didn't think i had much of a choice either. so owell, God will make a way when there seems to be no way.A new year has come, with the past year still so real and close and practically, still existing. it's such a weird feeling i've never had before. gone are the excitement, the anxiety, the punch that a new year has arrived and yes, 365 brand new days to vandalise on. There's a weird feeling of.. nothing. Maybe the nothing was derived from everything tht's mixed togehter and i cannot put my finger onto it. But it's really like, okay, it's just yet another new year. and dun let me find out eventually that it is becos i dun believe anymore that a new year would mean a whole new start bcos it doesnt normally turns out that way we hope it to be, but often, it turns out the opposite way. Bcos that would mean that minhui's become pessimistic and brainwashed by the world aldy.. gosh i hate my tone.
but yea, anyway, 09 has come. and i would loveee loveee to breathe. to feel clouds on my fingertips and walk on the milky way again. to figure every human being as humanitarians and to stand by the windowstill watching the tall trees growing tall behind the highrise buildings at 3pm in the afternn and the wind blowing straight at my face washing away every single strain of exhaustion and hopelessness. i would lovee to have all of that come back again.