Saturday, December 06, 2008 10:35 PM
Such a sad sad story:'(
Okay, but anw i shall blog bout Im in Him afterall.
Day One
I was pretty nervous even before the registration. Becos of some background work that you know. Yepp. So i was talking to Shuling and SuHuai and yepp that was how i spent the time before registration. Of cos, also go prepare the stuff for IBG and the water babies.
Btw, the camp comm stayed over on sunday also, and the rehearsals for opening ceremony was done only on monday morning.
Then, registration's over, everyone settles inside zheng tang. The whole movie thing started.
We acted, there was the ppt cum video and all. Atmosphere was right. & the only-got-once-rehearsal opening ceremony ended with the party popper thing that jason and cherlyn activated. This is number 1. (ltr will say what these stands for). Then when Log Head (haha, mu tou) went up to do his reporting and stuff, i rushed out to meet the station masters for IBG. haha, that was when peiwenjie rushed out to tell me Chin Hee finished his reporting and im supposed to go in.
So i did.
and i did the explaining and stuff, and they went to do their identities.Apparantly a lot of people wanted nachos as their group names lol. mei chuang yi de yi qun jia huo.. But anw, yar, the scissors werent sharp. But each group had their identities done anyway. Haha, qing cao. Really made me reminded of Chee Soon. Like seriously.
Kay, then was the IBG. It's called 'here is the love'. but i dun think anyone got the title. but owell haha.
marg jie made me the photographer cos i was walking arnd overseeing everything. Yay SLR. but okay, yepp. then the cloud
paiseh. was very overwhelmed by the songs. okay, yar. so the clouds. the clouds began to lyk totally add a lot of weight, i.e. threatening to rain. hanging very low.
and i was very very scared. like really. i prayed and prayed. i said, 'God, i have faith in You.' over and over. i asked marg jie n wanling to pray together with me. okay,the speaker's blasting at me. okay but anw, God held the rain for a while, and i was really glad. Sinyee shared same feelings, cos hers is the only station that was really outdoors. But after that, it rained. i was quite discouraged, but i told myself, someone else is praying for rain and she/he needs it more than i dont need it. and i thought, yar, at least the groups had fun, as apparantly i see. But, looking back, i didnt really shi huai that feeling of being well, discouraged. But i've gotton over it.:) later tell you all why.
Then was the waterbabies ceremony. Oh i forgot to say! the part when purple groovy found the treasure and locked the door and green grass came and bang on the door was really encouraging for me! i love to see this kind of ji dong hua mian:) okay, hten about the waterbabies. paiseh sia, i really donno it will become lyk tat,lyk humongous and unable to gauge which container contains more. nor did i expect that some will grow smaller than others. i.e.the red and orange ones. But luckily no one complained about it. thanks!
then after taht was all the bs and dinner and stuff, then was the 85 game; they say it's called makan sutra 85.
again, i didnt play cos i need oversee. and i went around, and was really glad that omgosh i love this song:
huai nian~
okay, anw yepps, really glad to see the groups running about, lyk chionging, sweating, gulping food down. But disclaimer! the ice jelly clue is not jus about the sign looking lyk jelly man! that was supposed to be the best clue la-.-
it's cos it's called agar agar, ie. estimation. so is iced agar agar! not the look lyk jelly thing sia.
okay, yepp, then my group went up first. kay, i haf to say. i was really glad, happy, to see LP in her old chionging self. i guess i missed all the old people in their old selfs. it;s been a long time since we did such things togehter and i really missed those times, missed the her. LP if u see this dun comment haha, if not very gg. yar, so i was realyl glad htat first day games went pretty well. Very glad that they had fun.
Day Two
am only going to blog bout the prog.
I was station master. But i played yanbing's station with my group! haha, very long nv play games aldy:) we won 3 diamonds there~whee.
kay, then few groups went to play my station. and the sky looked really unpromising. man, this song!
haha, okay. yar. and i was really worried, cos this time it was at east coast. if rain suddenly really die. and i was reminded of waht happened yesterday. but i tink God's grace brought us through; at the end it didnt rain. but just htat few groups came to the bbq pit area cos they clogged abner's station at mac's there. so was not really well thought thru on our part. and so pai seh to the station masters who put in so much effort into preparing, esp vivien! paiseh! :X
yar, and the prog overan by quite a lot; altho in the end managed to salvage some time by making arrangements. wasnt' there for auction; was practising for night of worship; so sad! i wanted to witness the auction:(
kay, so the practise. Si kai ge scolded us. becos it was just noise. and worship shudnt be lyk tat. it was lyk an insult to God. which we all felt so also, lyk ever since the start of this band thing. so yar, prac was short, cos vanessa need use the place for her own band prac oso. so that was it, and it was left hanging there, everyone's worried and tan te bu an.
and hten, it was the night of worship. before that i was so eager to go back to prac, bcos for those involved in it, they know that it's really in a state of CMI. but end up we had onlky 15 min to prac b4 the thng starts. & i so wanted to pray, so after 1 song i asked ale to stop, and just pray. hope for the best. & abner. he told me that he was stressed. and at that time i felt quite touched, like this little brother, feels the feeling of taking ownership of his job. and i was pretty happy actually, not saddistic. but glad cos feels that he has grown up upon this experience.
And when we were doing the thng, i tink everyone felt that God was within us. Bcos, it was the best really, the best, rundown we ever had. EVER. and abner also shared that God took over his drumsticks. Which i really felt so also. Becos it really went lyk, without hiccups. not even wiht jason's tabs. This is number 2.
Day Three
Hort park. i played. haha. 3rd time walking the trail. but had fun, cos wehad bonding within the group. took fotos. YIRONG! THE FOTOS! okay. yepp. was seriously overun. at night, white funeral. teared, cos of the movie, and cos cherlyn n ys went up to share. both from MusT. and touched by our progress since start of the cell. lyk, we now consider not only struggling with our own faith, but with other people's faith also.
chatted with Rachel and Yanbing till late. Shared something i didnt even remember to share with cell that night. i didnt even konw it is significant to share with until yb say it is. i tink probably God wants me to realise that it is nt just a sometimes kinda thing..? kay, so that was it. I dunno if i haf the burden for this group member of mine, but i feel responsible for her.
Day Four
pack up. a mistake: we didnt prepare well for closing ceremony.
kay, but anw we camp comm + pengpeng:D went to 18chef's for lunch-dinner. had quite a fun time. after taht left lowell, chinhee, pengpeng:D, cher and me. and we played the indian poker game with a stake. HAHA. chin hee keep wanting to do me in but end up he drank that pepper thing many more times than i did:D but he had his revenge by spilling accidentally tho the thing on my foot -.-
yar, we bought banana split for lowell for his belated bday haha/. and we indeed sang a bday song! lol. and the waiter asked whose bday was it, cos they haf candles and we were lyk haha, it's aldy belated. but still, the waiter was nice enuf to ask:D and i tink alll the waiters there are very nice, each time i go there, they very tie xin:D
yepp, so that was basically it. was really tired/
and as i shared over and over again, i didnt feel much spiritually this time. but i guess it's okay yea.
but am really glad to see pple lyk estee coming back. haha, her blog rites that i quoted ' this camp is for you'. cos i really felt so la, lyk tying in with all her concerns she had b4 the camp. i tink this camp raelly really made miracles for her and i hope it stays with her:) lky, no matter waht happens in time to come even.
and for LP, i feel tat as compared to last time, we;'ve shu yuan-ed. But the camp made me see the old ehr again. and, you mo ming de kuai le lor, lyk i didnt realyl lose this very very goood friend. corny, but yea, my best friend. altho we nv really tok much aldy, nv really go out together,but i believe there's still this mo qi betw us. cultivated over a period of years. and i hope this will carry on for many more years.
& after the camp, i m raelly tired. Not so much physically. but this i shall not say here. yepp.
back to reality, one month ahs passed. & i so hate reality. But im not supposed to.
so yea. i dunno.
i just wanna sing for now.
oh yea. the numbers thing i said earlier. yar, those were the times i felt God's grace for us during the camp. not very deep deep kind, but it's definitely not us that kinda feeling. yepp. The whole camp is, i guess, considering the way we plan. the way we don keep to deadlines and all.
& i guess i've come to terms again, God's love for me. after listening to ding dang's ming bai(in my previous post). He speaks in all sorts of different ways but nv fails to convey the message when he means to.
I wrote this in response:
你只是要我明白
明白你对我的爱
这世上 没有人爱我比你更多
你只是要我明白
你一直用你的方式
默默却从不停止的爱我
你让我们能够
跨进你神圣宝殿
你不愿意放手 放弃我们
看见你所创造的 沦落在黑暗中
没有人会比造我者更爱我
没有人能够改写这件事实
你一直 用你的语言
对我说 孩子，我一直都爱着你。
过去现在和未来。
我的爱 对你 永远不变。
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怀念~