Sunday, May 25, 2008 8:46 AM
In the zu zhang chao ji tdy, dianne shared bout being too occupied with self tat we've no space left for others. tat happens v frequently to me..lyk now. i am weirdly unexcited about student camp. i tink i subconsiously emphasise too much on what might seem to be 'more important'. nonetheless, i will still push myself to do a good job..the job tat i've signed up for, and the job tat came so unexpectedly.being selected is a kind of ken ding la. i will not man yuan or anything coz this is wat i am appointed to do. by God, by the committee. and true true. the church peeps are kinda not-the-rahrah-kind.:D i mean, i am not really THAT rahrah, but well, i can put up a front one :D so..hopefully i can sheng ren the gong zuo ba. a little nervous, a little afraid. okay, just now i experienced a nervous rush capturing my entire heart but well.step into the zone and all's well..!i hope.
i am thankful that the feeling has come back again. the emptiness kinda retreated bcos i sort of found back the feeling i had when i was in upper sec. being in photosoc made me feel a little weird about myself. okay, maybe not just a little. maybe a lot. it's not about wat we do. i mean, i lyk photography and i sincerely want to learn this skill and art the professional way. but..i guess it's the way things are done? the very nature of this club and cca and all.. it's v different. that's y i haf been feeling really strange. a little disappointed at myself and my choice. butthen one day god sent jia mi jie to jiang dao. and she said,
'zhu, rang wo zai ping fan zhong de yi man zu.'
and that striked me real hard. pin fan zhong de yi man zu. ya.wat's wrong wif ordinarity? u dun haf to be in the limelight all the time to be happy. happy is urself. happy is the language of sufficiency.of feeling adequate. and tat feeling can come from noone but yourself.
so i started feeling better.
owells. an advertisement below- just in case any church member or renai pple stumble across this blog and sees this :
PLEASE HELP RENAISSCANCE!:)
we'll be publicising bout renai and camp echo on last morning of camp.
PLEASE join us in the item we've prepared painstakingly if you're not tone-deaf,
and if u are nice enuf :D:D:D
only 2 rehearsals before the camp, and one final one before the actual item.
it's jus pure singing.
if u haf the passion, COME JOIN US!
tell any renaisscance pple.
thanku!