oh man. it's so weird.
few minutes ago was Vj council investiture.
all the stepping down, the slides, the performance, the pledge..
the walking-ins..
something called 'huai nian' was awakened inside me..

a year ago i was seated in this very same hall, but not clad in this beige color uniform but white long sleeved shirt, aline skirt and green blazer. i was here to watch the then council investiture. and oddly, today i sit among my class, watching the councillors do their stuff.

and i really miss council alot.

being a nobody now is not something to be really sad about.
but its jsut that sometyms u kinda miss those days.
but i haf no passion left.
n if i really do take up anything, i m afraid it is for show
which i wldnt want it to be.
i suppose i can nv find the passion back again.to serve in any kind of organisation of course, except church and gb.

is this a kind of degeneration?
maybe.
but i wld rather take it as a time for me to really think wat is in my life n wat is gonna be in my life.
a time to rest, a time to retreat, a time to tink and ponder. to seek, to find, to mo suo.

but i do still miss the old days/
sigh.

YEOminhui.
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