Sunday, April 20, 2008 2:43 AM
allow me to go back to time tdy.sry if it makes u emo esp on a sunday evening :P(coz dreadful monday is coming again)tdy's gb enrollment service. was contemplating whether or not to go, coz am still a little sick and tmr's NAPFA. but i received lp's msg asking if i am going. then i realised i haf the 'responsibility' to go, since i told anngi if i can go i will, and it's the first enrollment we will be attending as alumni. so i guess i haf to be present ba.
when we reached there, we were aldy a little late so we chiong in lol. in to the church.
then it's all the norms that we haf been doing for the past 4 services..the performance part was..-.- now then i noe we haf been doing this for 4 yrs!it was quite lol when they started steppinig to left n right :D but cute though! but i wldnt want to put myself there lol.
then lp went up for speech and talked bout how we felt during sec1,when we just got informed that we got into gb.
still rmb vvv clearly. that day, duno hu i tink is shumin the monitress came in with teh cca list and read it out loudly. we were so confident of getting into dance(lol!) but when she read 'minhui-gb' i was lyk 'are you sure?!' and all the confusion came in lol. then we-me and lp- started pestering evelyn to swop cca wif us coz she got into dance. then at recess time we kept pestering minghui who oso got into dance and who tats how i noe her lol!
but of cos we didnt succeed la. i mean, gb lyk lol? (at tat tym)
so we dragged ourselves to teh welcome party, all unwillingly and depressed. it was at the lower sec block, first lvl i tink was then 2K or 2J. then me n her sat at the steps, stoning, plannig how to quit gb lol. then dione came by and asked us why so sad.then we told her we dun wanna join gb. then dey say stuff lyk come for a few mtgs la then u decide if u wanna stay. and all that.they didnt force us alright, just few words of advice. then we went in for the 'party'.
I STILL RMB!tat was the only party tat had pizza.haha.aft tat no more liao. but anw, it was tht party tat made me stay in the cca. coz of evelyn and apple and audrey acty. they really made us v siao -over grapes o yes.- and we got quite close n the thing ended really on a high note. then we decided, with such gr8 seniors and team spirit, there's really no nid for us to leave for dance. so tadah! we became squad leaders and eventually grown into matured women(yes ba?) and christians-tho it was student camp tat prompted us to reunite wif God more.
and then all this came to an end when we pass our posts and duties over to the then sec3s, and started preparing for our o's.
the last mtg when the juniors did the 'seniors we love u' thing was sooo shen ke.tink i will nv forget tat coz it was tat tat triggered off the tears i tot will not drop.
and then now, in a new enviroment, i try scavaging for a piece of gb, but of cos failed miserably coz reality hit hard on my head agn and agn, telling me all's gone and we've got to move on. perhaps i joined gb to find that teeny weeny piece back.
i used to tell pple to 'move on', to tink that i m sensible enuf and matured enuf tat when i promote to J1, i can move on bcoz it's gna be just another phase of life. when li lao shi told us bout her students coming back to complain bout the JC life, i wld be lyk move on, everyone has to anyway.
but now i realised.
there's no way to jump out of this circle so easily.
in this circle, all the friends you feel u've known for ur entire life are here.
the dearest classrooms where all the laughters and jokes were kept in.
the teachers who at first blacklisted us but shared tears wif us at the end.
the school where we spent more than 3/4 a day in.
even the 85 market tht haf lost its novelty eventually.
the coca cola we wld buy illegally after cca on fridays.
the aftermaths of exco mtgs.
the money-eating vending machines.
the friendly cai fan auntie with all the nice food.
the ice cream palour.
the toilets tats just 10 steps away from the classroom.
the 4A-4F lvl where we practically all noe each other.
days when we peep into the staff room to search for teachers.
days when i see pple siam mr chua with untidy uniform.
days when i see pple slping during morning devotion.
days when the guys say 'poly NO mial'.
days when we planned for camps,
slpt late at nite in sch,
hanged out late at nite at parade sq playing silly games,
saying hello and bye to teh security guard
going under the rain almost every cca orientation to keep the stuff.
and everything nice tat has ever happened in my life.
but we haf ato move on, even if it means with a foot still stuck in that circle.
we haf to mvoe on, even if it means dragging tat circle as we walk.
best part about memories, is that it will nv change.
bcos friends are now gone, achievements haf now expired.
the A's are much more difficult to get.
but we haf nth to gain from looking back senselessly.
nth but a little smile on our faces.
and realised how much we've grown.
and how time is such an amazing thing,
tat nv fails to operate,
and makes an irreversible reaction with life,
chemically speaking.