Sunday, March 02, 2008 12:37 AM
when your world starts to fall apart,gravity can't hold you down anymore.
you become light in the common world,
you become insignificant.
you become suspicious of your dreams,you existence.
you become tired of trying to make the world right again.
you want to run away,
you explore all the alternatives in your mind.
ultimately, you stay right where you are.
because this world you're stuck in
is interconnected to other worlds virtually,
and it is not up to yourself to change this world,
or even,
to abandon this world.
you turn to higher beings,
you seek comfort.
you get comfort.
but when things start to rivert back again,
the comfort dissisipates.
and then you try to assign all sorts of reasons
to justify the life you are leading now.
your head thumps hard,
together with the tired heart.
you want to follow your heart,
you want to flyy with the dream you have,
but you are afraid of a hard fall.
you are afraid of incurable injuries.
you cry beneath the laughter.
you grow tired of those laughters.
you envy others of their adequacy which you're lacking of.
and so you stand in the rain,
drenched,
feeling cold under layers of clothings,
but all you can do is but to stand there,
moving along the pace bit by bit,
and pray.
for an answer,
for an alternative.
not understanding the logic of how the world works,
not wanting to understand the logic of why proteins are made of CHON/S.
not wanting to understand the logic of n=mass/molar mass.
not wanting to understand why S=n/2{2a+(n-1)d}.
that's a lethal mistake in life.