omygosh.
i actually let the feeling of joy leave me.
i let it pass.

and now THE feeling is back again.
and i am caught up in this stupid vicious trap again.

sometimes living can be such a chore
when i do know that it should not be so.
but sometimes things go out of my control.
i carn help it neither can i do anything
to reduce the consequences of it.

i do not delibrately make it happen
it dawns naturally upon me.
it just happens,
lyk 'ding!' and the magic-the black magic-works.

i can be selfish if i want to
but i cant bring myself to it.
not becoz i m more morally superior than the others
no.
i am just saving myself from more troubles
more routes to destroying myself.

i have recovered.
i have now suffered an elapse.

and i will get out of it soon
i noe
i will.
it just takes time.
and lots and lots of strength.

determination will bring me through.
have faith and i can walk on water too.

YEOminhui.
2009。毫无遗憾。活着。
牵扯着。勇敢着。跋扈着 疯狂着。
梦着 醒着 行走着。
到达。偏僻的 热闹的。
刚强。倔强。固执。抵抗。不迭不朽。
活着。美丽着。爱着。