Saturday, February 02, 2008 5:19 PM
I NEED TO ESCAPE.everyone needs to escape.
we are all sosososo tired of this life.this school.this misery.
and the uncertainty of what lies ahead of us.
will we step into a marsh?
or a new piece of haven?
will we be able to take the rush of novelty when we start a new semester in a new school?
yesterday zhisin says she needs to go away from this life and go crazy for one day.
coz we are all really tired.
and sick.
But a day of high-ness doesnt seem enough to cover the misery we haf suffered for lyk 3 wks aldy?
I carn believe what i haf always wanted turned out to be the cause of my misery.
one random day at the canteen one senior asked, "wat is it that u all hate TJ so much?"
and me n xuanting replied " we dunno either.it's just the feeling's not rite."
and the senior said "thats wat pisses the seniors off coz everytime we ask u all dunno."
but tis kinda pisses us off too.because diff ppl haf diff opinions.lyk how some ppl really do lyk tj e.g.xinzi.alto is a minority.
i dunno..i dun want to go dig out the reason why we hate tj so much.
it's really the school culture and atmosphere.(am i answering to myself?lol.)
it helps that so many AHS ppl are there, with the same sentiments, so we can rely on each other.
it's the only thing holding us tgt.
aldy so many ppl quit pae in this school aldy.
it's just that the rest of us dun haf this courage to do the same thing.
but..
I ENVY THEM A LOT!
and uh-uh.a lot of seniors..quite some la..dun lyk the school too!
okay.enough of my compliants of the school.
talk bout yesterday.
yesterday was one of my happiest day since so long.
yesterday was the post-sec gb orientation and NTU charity initiated games carnival.
talk bout post-sec first.
i tink this is one of the most fufilling and informative gb event i haf ever attended in 4 yrs.it's short and sweet and v informative.and not quite as lame as the other events.
we started off with ice-breaking games..it's all the norms..with the "longest..shortest..tallest.." that game.yar.at that time we were qutie diao.but aft tat..they introduced this game 'mao zhua lao shu' which is cat catch mice.and it's very innovative.can teach gb and council nxt tym ha.but it's quite fun la..(note!!i say fun den is really fun lol!)den lastly was charades.it;'s cliche i noe.but when we're high,everything is fun.(bumble bee..=X) the theme of the charades was on leaders..and i got someone from TRANSFORMERS.lyk lol..
okay.den aft taht,they showed us stuff on wat exactly is post-sec gb.
and we realised NYAA gold is a component of it.
and we havent completed bronze yet.
....
but nvm!i am DETERMINED to join this gb thing.
coz i think it wld eb one of the best thing i haf ever participated.
this is one of the very few thing offered to students that can TRULY train on ur leadership and stuff.and haf the opportunity to do loads of things tat normally we cannot do.
we can initiate projects without prompts form HQ!
yay!!
yar.den after that we left gbc-happy-to heartland mall to eat expensive pizza-and went to vivo for the carnival.
thruout the carnival i was v happy.coz with the gb bb alumnis we had alot of fun ourselves.we were tending game booths la.but apparantly the organisers present were a lot more den the participants present so we had plenty of time to play among ourselves.some NTU were quite ncie..very fun..others were blugh :(
something i was v pissed about was when the basker went up on stage to perform.
THEY WERE VERY GOOD,we were down the stage clapping,swaying,cheering,and they-the organisers themselves-were standing about,talking to each other,doing their own thing..it doesnt help tat there were only lyk 8 or even lesser audiences at that time!!!
it's lyk c'mon!u all invited them.can u all gif them the due respect that they fully deserve??!
what's more he is one of the few performers that can really sing WELL on htat day la.
yar.anw, we had fun/esp at the end,when we're leaving home.
coz some CHEAPOS-some BB CHEAPOS-went to the tokens redeemation counter to redeem prizes.but as it was coming to an end, the person said we can take as much as we liked.and then, these two cheapos-yongsheng and cherngru- went to take all the nicer stuff toys dere and stuffed it into their bags.yongsheng stuffed it into mine..ohoh!there were these five balls of fur!!hahha!!
den when we were walking out the amphitheatre, they took the goodie bag..with her world,shape,MAXIM,and shesheidos products and stuff the stuff toys inside the bags..lyk OHOHOHOHOH!!!!!!!
den we're laughing all the way out..when someone was performing on the stage, playing the piano and singing..er..mai huo cai de nu hai.
:)
i was really kinda happy last nite..till 9-10om lyk tat.
but my happiness diminished lyk tat wheni haf to do the PW thing.
i cannot anyhow do coz altho i dun really care bout the points now coz i wld eb leavign anw.but my grp ,members are staying..
and the thought of GOING BACK TO SCHOOL really puts me off.IT'S APPALING.
and later at one i nid to go plazasing to meet up..
and dere goes my weekend.
haiz..
i woke up tdy with a heavy heart once more.
and i prayed over and over again over the same thing:
'let us be happy.and get over this soon.'
and i m v stressed now over history and my lib books
coz i wanna drop chem..and very tempted to drop hist.
for chem, i wanna take up CSC but i heard vj dun haf CSC.so maybe i take CSE tho ireally dunno wat they haf aldy done to this pt of time..so scared.
den if i drop hist,i dunnow at to take.maybe econs..but ppl haf been telling me ECONS V DIFF..all tat..
PARADOX.(quote lu huan)
AND IT REALLY SCARES ME WHEN I CLDNT GRASP THE MEANIGN OF HALF THE HISTORY LECTURE,AND CLDNT GET THE PT OF THE WHOLE LECTURE.
someone, please help me..
anyone, want a reunion dinner?or meal?or gathering?
i need the togetherness!
fly me to the sky
and let me be as light as the clouds.