Sunday, December 09, 2007 1:56 AM
random-my take on de javui believe tat life's lyk a video show.The maker is the one who watches the show.Therefore, He has the remote control to our lives.One that can rewind, fast forward, stall, etc.When we pray for somethin, He does not just give it to us, straightforwardly.He gives us a choice. Sometimes, when we regret some of the choices we haf made, we pray again, asking for a re-do.Then, this is when He will rewind our lives back to the time we made the "wrong" choice, but of course, we would not know that we haf been rewind-ded.And then, if we made the same choice again,(since we won't know tat we haf been thru this before) we experience something called dejavu coz we are doing the same thing all over again because of the same choice that we made a second time.We wouldnt be sure that we haf been thru it b4 since we are not supposed to know.but we haf this tangling feeling that we haf been thru this b4 coz since it is a fact that we haf been thru it b4, it wld nt be erased.so there, there is the dejavu feeling:)
which leads to another of my thinkings- at the same time, in every dimension possible on earth or elsewhere, there is a same me living.But we mite all be doing different things.for example, there is a few of "me" aldy living.the "me"s that are "me" a few seconds,minutes,hours,ages later.why a few? coz we will be given choices in our lives now and then that may change our lives, so dere is aldy a few of me living in the future with respect to what kind of choices the "me" now will make.yea? which means that i m not the onli minhui living now.there is still the future me, the past me, the present me that maybe a different me due to a different choice that i may not haf made.or i may be living inside my own coma, or in someone's dream.which means that i m acty virtual, bt thinking that i m real, since the world i m in now seems so "real".
Post- life nowadays.
Many weeks haf passed after O's.now and then i m still quite afraid of the results, but as it is, i shall and will leave it up to God.If he wants me to go to another school, so it shall be.There will always be a reason for it.Like after PSLE i always expected myself in DHS but He posted me to AHS, where i came to know Him, believe in Him, and become a follower.so kan kai le!
soon, a lot of ppple will be going overseas.US,Taiwan,Japan,Korea...blah blah.me staying safely in safe Singapore:) never mind bout that.:) anws, i m no longer working in the blue urban oasis(yicks!) Quit on the first day of work.LP's found a new job at soeul, and im now a tutor with a low pay acty.but it's alrigt!it's jus a part time so i m nt aiming for a super high pay or anythign.at least it's a job tat pays and can compensate the big bucks i spent on farewell gifts and on prom.
anw, about prom.i tink the sec3s done great.tat's what i tink.now the dress is sleeping peacefully in my wardrobe.70 bucks gone to the drain.anws, it's over.lyk in a nite.but memories are left behind so i guess the money's all worth it.a perfect fullstop for the not-so-perfect-but-very-memorable-and-life-changing walk of my life.I love my secondary school life.I love my school:)
a week ago, i was at drill camp.stunned at the standard of discipline in GB now.and the disciplinary measures taken in the company.it's effective alrite.but can really be so frightening.lyk even to me and other seniors :D But i guess i missed GB after i went to that camp(altho it started off as a responsibility as GB drill comm alumni) When in term, i spent more time-much more time- on sorting council stuffs up(coz ya u noe) as a result neglecting a huge part of GB.i guess i found that feeling tat i had in sec2 about Gb again during the drill camp coz i m free of all other responsiblities now-jus lyk two years ago..and i m now able to-again-appreciate the fun and joy of GB.well well..it is this that prompted me to go back for bonding camp.
okay,about bonding camp.amazing race to me was okay.i dunno.mayb it's just me.sorry sec3s~:D but i can see tat bonding camp was still enjoyable to the company.so tat's the most impt de!
yestd evening, went to nien yuan hse for a supposedly orientation nite games mtg, and to "hang-out". dunno wat happen, some of those tat went started to search for satanic songs and listening to them.of course, me went down and covered my ears(carn bear to hear it) i tink coz we were discussing bout nite games and this interest aroused.bt haiz.i dun approve of this and it spooks me still now coz even when i was downstairs, i can still hear btis and parts of the eeeeeerie songs.@.@anws, the zhong dian is, at round 8, me n rachel left the house.we took bus 13, hoping to reach enous mrt..BUT WE MISSED THE STOP.and we went on and on..to geylang's red light district.Boy.it's scary.me n rachel were scared stiff at the sight can.but eventually after long,frightful ride, we dropped off at kallang mrt and went hme.so whoo.end of adventure :D
this hols gonna end soon.i haf a lot of thigns tat i said i wld do b4 O's tat i haven done yet.which oso,most probably i wont now..but anws, i hope that tis hols will be fulfilling to yet everyone i noe of.coz aft this hols, we wldbe embarking on a whole new journey full of unknowns.so durnig this period of time, we must cherish each other's company!!
Loving my memories:)sweet sweet honey.