所以渐渐的我们在别人里面失去自我成了别人，站得住脚的，别人称为勇敢疯狂的他们；所以他们便成了别人眼中的别人。

omgosh. i just had a massacre with insects. I HATE INSECTS!


a.r.g.h.


嘴里也含着鱼钩来搏斗,
　　输的鱼,是不会掉泪的。
　　
　　那些心爱的石头，
　　有的会被海浪卷走，
　　有的会被别人卷走，
　　有的会永远留在原地。
　　每一颗小小石头，
　　都有悲欢离合的命运。
　　
　　颁奖的音乐响起时，我觉得好尴尬。
　　第一名的人，兴奋过头，休克送到医院急救，无法领奖。
　　第二名的人，不服气输，拒绝领奖。
　　第四名的人，因为不是前三名，没脸领奖。
　　第五名的人说："第四名的人都不领奖了，
　　我也不好意思领奖。
　　第三名的人真寂寞。
　　明明是一件很快乐的事情嘛？--几米


我看见一个父亲，


蚂蚁最大的生活哲学应该就是学会原谅，学会不去多想多思索，因为它们的一生都在战战兢兢下度过，却怎么也无法明白，它们只是在生活罢了，怎么会有那么多只手无情的想将它们一扫而尽？


从火车开动，穿过巍峨青山经过平静湖水的那一刻起，车厢里的我如坐针毯。我和对坐的婆婆素不相识，却在她身上隐约感受到了家乡的气息。是啊，我那曾经回不了的家。


freedom from God is the only freedom that won't hurt.


today's the eve of the official start of my prelims paper. GP paper takes off tomorrow at 8.

so i thought i would jot down some thoughts now to serve as memory - good or bad - years down the road.

these 2 years have been like a massive overwhelming i dont know.. flood? something of that nature and something of that scale. It's truly a test of character and determination; a test of emotional and psychological strength, which i know may sound weak at this point in time considering that so many people have taken the same path, felt the same way, except to complain less. but i guess, life's gotta be like tat. this is my first glimpse to life on a larger scale; the glimpse into a full picture depicting what life would be. my first obstacle at the age of 18, not a seriously major one, but one that is enough to make me feel tired and drained. and i guess the exams thing, the rat race, paper chase all of those excesses that overspilled from a local education is just a trigger to overturn any concealing stones inside me that were hiding all the ugly weaknesses i had in me.

and that's when change is going to happen.

having had a really smooth sailing life for 16 years in my life, no major hiccups (okay, except some) that really caused me to go boo-hoo everyday in the week. that's why i think of this experience now as a learning one, a process of rediscovering (or discovering) what is inside me and to change all that need to go and to store up all that is good. The enormous unknown still lurks beneath the surface, but i am learning, to let go... and of cos, what i have been reminded of again and again and still learning to do so... to let God.

I guess this is the most crucial lesson i have learnt at the end of the day; maybe the only lesson that i am supposed to learn.

that apart from God, we are like branches fit only to be thrown into fire.

I really really need God's strength, and many may say that this is yet another piece of evidence that only the weak relies on God; but i think this is how God disciplines His child. To break me down and pick me up again, becos i was so stubborn; and deliriously self-righteous; not conscious at all to the things that i have overlooked. i thought too that i knew how to be focused, how to be determined; i thought i was a person of high EQ; i believed - i truly did- that there is a solution to every problem. But now, i have a new perspective; that there is a solution to every problem, but only when you solve it with God. that's the ultimate solution that definitely leads to the right way; the will of God which therefore will surely lead to only good things.

it is from this seemingly insignificant problem that raised me to awareness of so many things- including myself, including my faith.

If i were the people who listened to my grumblings and well, misery, ya, i would scorn in my heart and label her as loser. i did even question myself, why am i such a loser. but hey, a follower of Jesus leads a victorious life, and i am going to claim that. I am now aware of that and i am gonna claim the victory i have in Jesus; whatever form the victory takes.

To the me who might be reading this a few years later, remember what took place during this period of time. Don't forget this lesson again. ever.

YEOminhui.
2009。毫无遗憾。活着。
牵扯着。勇敢着。跋扈着 疯狂着。
梦着 醒着 行走着。
到达。偏僻的 热闹的。
刚强。倔强。固执。抵抗。不迭不朽。
活着。美丽着。爱着。